rubbish life..

woke up at 10plus am and reply a msg.. but after tat, dun feel like waking up, so i went back to slp until 1.30pm liddat then wake up.. didnt know y i juz couldnt fall back to slp and tears juz keep flowing down on to my pillow.. guess it muz have been becoz i juz dun feel good.. hai~ bad start of the day.. wat a day.. didnt have any outings today so stayed at home to play computer games. rather sian.. finally dear came online.. chatted with him for awhile and i juz dun feel right.. I have a i-may-blast-off-anytime kind of feeling.. i juz shut up and didnt chat with him much. bad mood.. very bad mood. then i juz continue playing the com until parents came home. they started scolding the moment they step into the hse.. argh! i am oredi having very bad mood lor! and they scold and scold! shit man! wat kind of life am i having now? parents who juz scold without reasons, siblings who juz didnt care much abt wat happen, bf who didnt really noe how i feel sometimes, friends who are always busy with their jobs and other friends that i am now like so lonely.. argh.. i hate it.. I am not blaming any1.. feel like dying... stupid messy life.. there she goes again! argh.. can she juz dun scold?! tat's y i hate to stay at home! stay at home and the time they come home, they juz keep on scolding.. if i have a choice, i would move out and stay alone!